that is something that we as humans tend to do. we have short attention spans and forget that God is our freedom.
we do things forgetting who gave us legs - it wasn't our parents.
when jesus came the israelites had been in chains for centuries at the hands of countless leaders. he was the messiah - the one coming to set them free, to save them. when he entered the gates of jerusalem on a colt they shouted "hosanna! hosanna in the highest!". 'hosanna' meaning "he saves".
he doesn't want us in chains
do you get that?
he doesn't want you hurting
this crap about living "half for him", praying when you need to isn't freedom. freedom comes with a commitment and obedience.
i love abandoned, free worship of the one who made me, and died for me. what i do comes from what he did.
i've got a new family in my life that i love so much, i'm so blessed to have them, and i'm going to a new church this year where i've found i can get lost in his presence, and thank him. he continually renews me and revives me and i love the light so much. i cannot imagine what my life would be like without him showing up every day with signs and miracles.